SheWolfPriestess » Why does anyone need a birth horoscope?

Since childhood, I loved reading horoscopes – descriptive, not predictions for a given sign for a given period of time. Despite being raised in a Catholic home, I had a few books at home with descriptions of the zodiac signs. I suspect it was because my mother couldn't ignore how typical a Gemini I was: talkative, impulsive and above all absent-minded (undiagnosed ADHD). My sister, on the other hand, had many of the typical Aries traits. Despite this, my mother treated these things half-jokingly, half-seriously, because she didn't find any Leo traits in herself (now I understand why). Of course, at first I didn't know that there was anything more than a sun sign – and that it was called that, in high school my knowledge expanded to something like the ascendant. And that was it, I wasn't really interested in it and I would never have expected how much studying my own horoscope would help me on my difficult path to healing CPTSD (complex post-traumatic stress disorder), loving myself and overall development. But let's start from the beginning.

When I was 34, I started psychotherapy, which lasted about 2 years. Psychotherapy helped me - a lot. To this day, I recommend it to anyone who experiences problems with themselves or with the world, as the best and basic starting point. Of course, if we humans, as a species, lived in harmony with our own nature, had real support in our family and social group, there would be no such need, but the modern world, as I always say, is upside down. I am afraid that all of us, without exception, at a certain stage of development and, to a greater or lesser extent, have been wronged by the model of modern life and society. The right (!) psychotherapist will help us reach the true source of our problems and will accompany us - and guide us, in the healing process. After the therapy was over, I was certain that I had been cured. I no longer felt contempt for myself when I looked in the mirror, I did not feel anger and pain at the thought of people who had wronged me, I could work and function quite normally, and it seemed to me that I was doing well as a mother. Despite this, my life, which seemed normal on the surface, was not going well. Work was a source of enormous stress for me, despite a very friendly and supportive environment. I continued to attract toxic men to me. And, most importantly and worst of all, my children fell into depression. I blamed all of this primarily on my very difficult financial situation and the need to deny myself and my children many, even basic things. That is why I devoted all my strength to work, hoping that when our financial situation stabilized, everything would be fine. But time passed and nothing changed – neither did my financial situation. Until, a few years ago, the moment of complete burnout came. All the symptoms of depression returned. I was unable to force myself to work, I sat helplessly in front of the computer screen, and tears of frustration and anger at myself dripped onto my keyboard. As a psychologist, the first thing I did was to seek professional help – I visited a psychiatrist and tried psychotherapy again. I gave up very quickly, because it turned out that I really had all the issues related to my traumas worked through. Now I know that it was, but only from the cognitive side, and that is simply not enough. That is why psychotherapy could not help me any more. The psychiatrist gave me 3 months of sick leave, thanks to which I could start the process of, let's call it, spiritual treatment and work with my body. Because I have always been a type of Hermione from Harry Potter: books, hard knowledge, cool analysis, "sage with a glass and an eye", opening up to the so-called spiritual aspects, invisible and unexplored things, was extremely difficult for me.

Now I know that I was going through something called the Dark Night of the Soul. It lasted several years, during which time I opened up to spirituality, discovered and came to terms with my life path and my true destiny, and began to consciously and actively use my extrasensory talents. I channeled a huge amount of information. And at some point my spiritual guardians led me to my birth horoscope. And it was like a hammer blow. The very first, most general, online calculator-based encounter with the description of the individual aspects of my horoscope left me in a state of shock and disbelief. Delving deeper into the individual aspects, I discovered that everything was written there – including the description of childhood traumas. All the problems I had struggled with in my life. But there were also ways to deal with them – not as a precise prescription of course, but as a helpful indication of direction. And nothing helped me come to terms with myself and love myself exactly as I am like a horoscope. I fell in love with this wonderful tool, which is a natal horoscope. I am still an analytical type – I have 66% Air in my chart, which gives me a lot of analytical skills and high intelligence (140 IQ). Working on a horoscope combines cool analysis with spirituality, it is a bit like putting together a puzzle. Different aspects have a specific impact, but when combined with other aspects they create something else. It is a difficult but satisfying analysis.

A birth horoscope is a large piece of written material. It can be overwhelming from the first impression. I worked with mine piece by piece, I chose a specific aspect, the most important for me at a given moment and its impact on my life, how it connects with other areas and I explored what is the best way to work with it. What can I change and what should I accept. What are the biggest challenges facing me. I understood that just as I have certain physical limitations, I also have limitations related to my psyche and character. You can call it strengths and weaknesses, but I prefer to think of it as a beautiful, luminous painting, full of various colors, whose darker areas contribute to the whole to the same extent as the brightest ones. I still believe that everything is possible and every limitation can be overcome if you devote the right amount of time and resources to it. But why focus on what you lack instead of developing your natural talents and capabilities? You can turn a painter into an accountant and vice versa, but why? To show that you can do it?
Returning to the title question: why do we need a birth horoscope? To make it easier for us to understand ourselves. From the moment we are born, we are subjected to conditioning by family and society. We often experience various traumas. All this causes our true personality to be covered by more and more layers of influence from others. Often we are completely unaware of who we really are - and who we could be if we lived in harmony with ourselves from the beginning. I regret not having this knowledge when my children were little – their horoscopes were and are a huge help to me, which came late – but this is part of their path – which I also had to accept. I hope that one day science will be able to explain why this is happening, what is the secret of the influence of celestial bodies on us. Every body emits radiation, dependent on temperature, but what else? Do the differences come from the structure and chemical composition of the celestial body? Or something else? Do we need more precise instruments? Is it about particles that we have not yet discovered, or unknown properties of particles that we already know? I would like to know, but I do not. For now, it is enough for me to know that it works and what effect it has on people. We have figured out quite well how genes shape our characteristics, I hope that in the future we will figure out the influence of planets and other celestial bodies. At the moment, we can use the final conclusions that have been fortunately known and described for thousands of years.